[ it was too much to hope that bucky would follow all that, it'd magically cure his amnesia, and they could go back to violently tag-teaming hydra until it was wiped from the earth. steve didn't expect that, really, not even in his wildest hopes. it'd be enough just to convince bucky he was—is—a person, that he could trust steve, that he'd never have to fight again if he didn't want to. worst case scenario bucky would think he was lying, but keep him alive for intel.
this is not even close to that. this is much worse. ]
It's not like that. I work—worked, I worked for SHIELD on purpose. I wanted to.
[ he thought he was helping, naive as that now sounds. steve takes bucky's hand and lets himself be pulled up. ]
I wasn't decommissioned. I was frozen, I had to put the Red Skull's plane down in the middle of the Arctic. The serum kept my cells from dying.
[ the important thing is they're not actively trying to kill each other right now. working theory being correct or not, it's practical to conserve their resources - or find some, considering their situation.
completing the mission is important, but staying in peak condition is just as valuable too. steve rogers may be confused, and his story doesn't make sense based on what he knows, but it'll do for now.
he stares at their still-joined hands, tilts his head a bit at it. he doesn't hate the contact. it feels almost familiar. ]
SHIELD is HYDRA. [ it comes out like a question. ] Many parts of it is. It— You were in the way.
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[ it was too much to hope that bucky would follow all that, it'd magically cure his amnesia, and they could go back to violently tag-teaming hydra until it was wiped from the earth. steve didn't expect that, really, not even in his wildest hopes. it'd be enough just to convince bucky he was—is—a person, that he could trust steve, that he'd never have to fight again if he didn't want to. worst case scenario bucky would think he was lying, but keep him alive for intel.
this is not even close to that. this is much worse. ]
It's not like that. I work—worked, I worked for SHIELD on purpose. I wanted to.
[ he thought he was helping, naive as that now sounds. steve takes bucky's hand and lets himself be pulled up. ]
I wasn't decommissioned. I was frozen, I had to put the Red Skull's plane down in the middle of the Arctic. The serum kept my cells from dying.
[ it all sounds ridiculous, laid out like that.
steve hasn't let go of bucky's hand. ]
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completing the mission is important, but staying in peak condition is just as valuable too. steve rogers may be confused, and his story doesn't make sense based on what he knows, but it'll do for now.
he stares at their still-joined hands, tilts his head a bit at it. he doesn't hate the contact. it feels almost familiar. ]
SHIELD is HYDRA. [ it comes out like a question. ] Many parts of it is. It— You were in the way.
Who's in charge now?